It’s been dragged on long enough, and it was just too hard to keep it going. I loved my boyfriend very much, but I ended up pushing him to breaking point with silly accusations, which in my head I knew weren’t true. So he ended it. He actually kissed me goodbye to work that morning and told me he loved me. But then i got a call later in the day saying he couldn’t do it anymore. We went for a period of not talking and it was horrible, it felt like a piece of my heart had been ripped out and laid out for everyone to see. A few weeks passed and I went to see him in York where he studies at uni, we ended up acting like the couple we once were…kissing, cuddling and even having passionate sex. We then got a takeaway and chilled out, I’d it made me realise how much I missed everything with him. We agreed to see each other again, and we did. Another lovely evening, this time in hull, walking around a nice forestry area…holding hands. I knew he had been talking to/meeting with other guys…and this bothered me. But I was too. He told me after that he had stopped talking to the other guys as it was pointless…me taking this as a sign. I also stopped everything. The week after I saw that he was in like Newcastle or something… I text him asking him what he was doing up north, he replied hours later saying he had the day off and fancied a trip. He was meeting up with a guy ( who he met off tinder ) this to me didn’t say that he was serious about me. I was heartbroken, once again. I then decided to call everything off with him. As It made me realise once again I couldn’t trust him. The first time I lost trust for him was when he met a guy from his past while I went to London with family, the second time was when he kissed someone else while on his way to meet me (then brought this guy on the night out) and then this most recent time…which was the cherry on top. I will always love my ex boyfriend, and I hope one day we can be there for eachother, as friends. But right now I’ve chosen to concentrate on myself, get my head together and do good. There’s someone out there for all of us. I wish him luck. Nobody I know will ever see this as I have like two followers (lol) so it made sense to get it out of my system especially on tumblr.